The Guilty Dog

Lonely, am I, though I try to look otherwise

Laugh or smile, disguise or rather hide

The insecurities I feed

You ask, why mask, what is going on with me?

Fuck!

Why should you care?

And I remember thinking to myself

God if you're up there send me down someone (who gives a fuck)

It's hard living, it's hard times in my mind

Doubt everything around me yet I say

You're not fine, I tell myself you're not right

It's insane, the things I wish that I had felt

Like the piercing sting of a Father's belt

Because tough love is still love, love's tough, I know this much

I'll tell you right now mother fucks, life's harder when you got none

Shit!

And yet still I try

They say the guilty dog barks first

And I've been barking 'til my fucking throat hurts

And this is it, the guilty dog barks first

And I've been barking 'til my throat hurts

For many years I've tried

To escape what makes me, me

But all I wanted my whole life

Was just somebody to give a fuck