Suicidal Thoughts

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dyin'

Every day I feel like dyin'

Why do I even try?

Why do I even write lyrics about

How I'm livin' the life

When I'm battlin' pain and my demons at night

Tryin' to find a new outlet

The devil pouncin'

I hear him howlin'

My vision cloudin'

And I tried to escape but there ain't no way

Try to be strong when I deal with the pain

Yeah, but I'm ditchin' the coffin

So my family has options

Gonna work till I'm dead

So that they get the best

Don't wanna set up a bad example

'Cause the kids lookin' up can't leave in shambles

Can't make them think clockin' out's okay

So fuck suicide, I'm here to stay

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wastin' all my time

Tryna find the light

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wastin' all my time

Tryna find the light

Nah, man

I'll be out here runnin'

I'll be runnin' from myself now

Gunnin' demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'll be runnin' now

I'll be runnin' from myself now

Gunnin' demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dyin'

Every day I feel like dyin'

One too many bad thoughts inside me

Got a hole in my heart, put the past behind me

I'm pressed for time, I'm stressed with life

My breath is ice

I guess I might just bottle it up some more

Just like always

Barely standin'

Crawl down the hallway

Sink into my bed

With death inside my head

Yeah, that note you found, I didn't mean it

Just wish I had a better sense of meanin'

Never meant to let you down

I've been down and out

Racin' thoughts of how to drown them out

Fuck, never givin' in, I swear to God

No matter how many times I pray to a god

I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up

But he called my bluff

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wastin' all my time

Tryna find the light

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wastin' all my time

Tryna find the light

Nah, man

I'll be out here runnin'

I'll be runnin' from myself now

Gunnin' demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'll be out here runnin' now

I'll be runnin' from myself now

Gunnin' demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dyin'

Every day I feel like dyin'

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dyin'

Every day I feel like dyin'