Mononokay

What does it mean to be happy?

And am I gettin' better?

I used to make excuses for myself

But it's not the weather

I've tried to rid myself

Of my anxious tendencies

But I have to accept my head

For what it is to me

I'm not superhuman

Well, I'm barely alive

But I would kill to leave my house

And not be afraid of the outside

So I started thinkin'

It'd be so nice

To not have trouble sleeping

I haven't slept in nights

So, I called to apologize

For every night

I told you I didn't want to live my life

But I hung up

Before you picked up

'Cause I changed my mind

I know more about plants

Than I know about myself

And if givin' up doesn't make you stronger

Then why the hell am I still here?

Call me depressed

Tell me to get over it

It's not in my head

Then it's in my blood

So, I called to apologize

For every night

I told you I didn't want to live my life

But I hung up

Before you could pick up

'Cause I changed my mind

And I've gotten better

At gettin' better

And I've gotten better

At gettin' better

At being me

I've gotten better

At gettin' better

And I've gotten better

At being me

And I've gotten better

At gettin' better

And I've gotten better

At being me

At being me