Human Performance

I know exactly where I was when I

First saw you the way I see you now, through these eyes

Waiting to retry

Those pristine days I recall so fondly

So few are trials when a life isn't lonely

And now if only

I'd never felt it, I'd never heard it

I know I loved you, did I even deserve it?

When you returned it

There's no suspicion, no hesitation

Believing through the eyes of sure adoration

Witness and know

Fracture and hurt

Eyes in the fire, blink unrehearsed

Shields like a house closing its doors

Curved in the dark, rinses of yours

Ashtray is crowded, bottle is empty

No music plays and nothing moves without drifting

Into a memory

Busy apartment, no room for grieving

Sink full of dishes and no trouble believing

That you are leaving

Mid-sentence tremors, mind at its weakest

One way of shaking off the thoughts that it sleeps with

Witness and know

Fracture and hurt

Eyes in the fire, blink unrehearsed

Shields like a house closing its doors

Curved in the dark, rinses of yours

In walks the darkness, I pitch without you

Asks me do I realize what I'd done and who I'd done to?

Indeed I do know

It never leaves me, just visits less often

It isn't gone and I won't feel its grip soften

Without a coffin

Breathing beside me, feeling its warmness

Phantom affection gives a human performance

Witness and know

Fracture and hurt

Eyes in the fire, blink unrehearsed

Shields like a house closing its doors

Curved in the dark, rinses of yours