Messy

I look at all the people around Should probably shake hands but I'm not that down Afraid of how I look, or how I sound Afraid if I say something dumb, y'all going to think I'm a clown Like, shit, your judging me and I can see it I hate every single one of you, y'all best believe it Feels like everyone's against me and it's not a secret Like they want to keep kicking 'til I'm left defeated Yeah, you want to see me fail Oh well, shit, I guess that's that Teasing me for how I talk or how I rap That's pretty wack, as a matter of fact Some of y'all should get slapped on your ass 'til that shit turn flat But damn, too late for that You ain't afraid to turn your back at the drop of a hat You people make me wish I was dead Maybe it's all in my head I can feel your eyes on me, makes me cold inside If this is how it's 'posed to be, I'm wasting my time I can feel your eyes of me, oh, ain't no disguise Want to run away and hide, 'cause my brain it tells me lies What can I say? Sometimes I get the vibe that everyone's going to fuck up my day Like would you please get the fuck out the way Shawty asked me if I was okay And I said, "Yeah, I'm good, I'm good" But the truth is I ain't Nothing bad happened in my fucking life it just be all up in my brain And makes a motherfucker go insane Like why the fuck I'm feeling all this pain? Why the fuck I'm taking all this blame for shit I didn't do? Yeah, I be doing this for me, I ain't doing this for you Just the thought of being around people make me feel blue Shit, that's just the truth But it don't have to be like that, so imma be right back Take a second for myself A second for my damn mental health A chance just to be all alone, so please don't hit up my phone I can feel your eyes on me, makes me cold inside If this is how it's 'posed to be, I'm wasting my time I can feel your eyes on me, oh, ain't no disguise Want to run away and hide, 'cause my brain it tells me lies I can feel your eyes, makes me cold inside If this is how it's 'posed to be, I'm wasting my time I can feel your eyes, oh ain't no disguise Want to run away and hide, 'cause my brain it tells me lies I can feel your eyes on me, makes me cold inside If this is how it's 'posed to be, I'm wasting my time I can feel your eyes on me, oh, ain't no disguise Want to run away and hide, 'cause my brain it tells me lies I can feel your eyes on me, makes me cold inside If this is how it's 'posed to be, I'm wasting my time I can feel your eyes on me, oh, ain't no disguise Want to run away and hide, 'cause my brain it tells me lies ... I'm not good man But life has been fine Feel like I should feel good today maybe something's wrong with my mind Feel like I'm wasting time I wish I could be more specific But sometimes I look to the future, and damn, that shit look horrific 'Cause I know I'll make it far, 'cause that's what I believe And I've been on this path, I know it's meant for me But sometimes I doubt myself lowkey I just can't let that doubt get to me Feels like I was born with this negativity embedded in me Keeping me from being me Like, jeez, I'm just working on peace Shit, I'm just working on peace 'cause I'm just trying to feel good today I've been searching for ways 'Cause I've felt good before And I want to feel good some more Shit, I'm just trying to feel good today If you know then show me the way If you know then show me the way If you know then show me the way My friends ask me if I'm okay I say yes to push them away Cause' they just want something to fix Tell them, "ain't no fixing this", like I'll be the life of the party, all of a sudden I'm silent I'll be the friendliest guy, all of a sudden I'm violent Stuck in this existential crisis Wonder why I'm living life like this I'm just so happy, haha I kid I'm getting sick of this shit I wish some days I wouldn't feel so lifeless Maybe 'cause I'm just so close minded Somebody look into my iris Tell me that it's going to be good 'cause I'm just trying to feel good today I've been searching for ways 'Cause I've felt good before And I want to feel good some more Shit, I'm just trying to feel good today If you know, then show me the way If you know, then show me the way If you know, then show me the way kid I'm just trying to feel good today I've been searching for ways 'Cause I've felt good before And I want to feel good some more Shit, I'm just trying to feel good today If you know, then show me the way If you know, then show me the way kid If you know, then show me the way 'cause I'm just trying to feel good today I'm searching for ways I've felt good before I want to feel good some more man I'm just trying to feel good today If you know, then show me the way