Don't Be Sad, It's a Party!

I can't see straight, think straight, feeling like a mistake My way, the wrong way, it's like I wanna fucking break my own bones Hold myself back I'm really good at that I always end up pissed off I'm also really good at that It's like I'm sittin' here Praying for my own downfall Countin down my days Just don't know how many left is all I'd mark it in my calendar, and throw a big party Take a couple shots Probably just me and my shawty Damn I think I'm fucked up in the head I wake up every day Wondering if I'll ever wake up dead I tried the positivity Always tryna keep a smile But it's time to face facts I won't be here for a while Damn I think I'm really down I should try and get up, but I'm upside down I don't know if its the liquor or the voices in my head But they kinda keep me comfort, wait for silence when I dead I always used to say, don't judge the day off of the weather But it ain't that kinda day it could always rain in heaven I could hit some lucky sevens Leave with pockets loaded, blow it in a night Nothing changes, any night could be the night So I'ma just say fuck it, nothing really matters anyway Ink my whole body, maybe that'll numb the pain Ice around my neck, maybe go and buy a pinky ring Cop an E63, drive it right into the lake damn I can't see straight, think straight, feeling like a mistake My way, the wrong way, it's like I wanna fucking break my own bones Hold myself back I'm really good at that I always end up pissed off I'm also really good at that It's like I'm sittin' here Praying for my own downfall Countin down my days Just don't know how many left is all I'd mark it in my calendar, and throw a big party Take a couple shots Probably just me and my shawty Damn Outro Music