In the Cold

I made a home here in unsteady things It was hard to think that I could ever leave So, I gave my breath each time she couldn't breathe on her own I felt her scars and asked her nervously Who was the thief that stole your certainty? She didn't know, she lost it sometime long ago I've fought so long, it's what I do My fists are fine, it's just my soul's a little bruised But I'll stay on my feet until I lose But I never learned to lose It's hard to know me At least you tried It's hard to love in the cold And it's gotten so cold outside My younger years went by so urgently And left me grief that I'm still servicing If good times change, why do the bad days stick around? She said "I'll just keep going to be kind To that same little girl who wondered why her parents cried 'Cause she grew up and learned to lie like them I've tried to lie to you But, boy, you listen to me with your eyes as well" And it's hard to see me At least you tried It's hard to love in the cold And it's gotten so cold outside Farewell, my uncle Farewell, his son Farewell, the pieces They're all I was Will you stay with me As I turn to dust? When you tell their story Tell them I was loved So now you see me For the first time It's hard to love in the cold But, boy, it's time I tried