Dreams Dissolve

This is where the dreams dissolve, this is where illusions shatter

It's been a long year of trying to stay afloat

And oh the constant struggle, my mind fights for reason

My heart fights for hope

Have I spent any of this time alone

Cause that's what this was for

No I've been hopping in and out of bed

With friends and lovers

I was never one of those who could not be alone

But now something has changed

Love never finds you when you want it to

It waits til you've stopped waiting

Will I have to spend this life alone?

Where is my companion?

So far I have been very blessed

Am I too demanding?

Open up the windows wide, let the cold air come in

Let the snow come too

Give me something unfamiliar give me seething I can use

Let me find something new

All these things I can't figure out alone

Don't matter with someone

Maybe I could learn to let it all go

And just have some fun