PTSD

I be smilin' way too much when I'm in public

But that's how I cope with the pain, so fuck it

Used to have hope, but that changed, now I'm wonderin'

Do you really love me like you say?

If you don't, that's okay, just don't lie to me

That wouldn't even be a surprise to me, no

Huh, huh, yeah, this is what it look like with my guard up, ayy

Phone full of numbers I should probably call up

I tend to change the subject every time it's brought up, ayy

Wonder what it feel like when it's all love, ayy

But then they remind me why I put them walls up, uh

When I feel uncomfortable, I can't let them see me being vulnerable

I would rather die alone than let them bleed me dry, no

Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say

I notice you ain't solid as you say

Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy

PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed

PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy

PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy

PTSD show me how to deal with pain

Huh, huh, yeah

Think I lost it, shawty on my leg, she tryna play

Feelin' nauseous, GG 80 proof up in my veins

Too much talkin', rather ride the whip, I'm switchin' lanes

All this damage to my body for your love is killin' me

PTSD, you feelin' nice, babe

Recuperate my soul, this drama is gettin' old to me

Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say

I notice you ain't solid as you say

Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy

PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed

PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy

PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy

PTSD show me how to deal with pain