Scared

What if I, what if I calm down?

What would I make of me now?

I run a pretty tight ship

What if I, what if I speak my mind?

It's a little sharp up there

It's full of self-hating critics

And biased analytics cause

I'm scared

Scared of having one too many eyes on me

One too many rugs pulled out under my feet

Too many nights I can't sleep

What if it's just me?

A brain in a body

A couple tendons and bones attached to a phone

What if I, what if I let machines

Do the talking for me?

Would my throat close up?

Would I never have to speak?

Yeah that sounds nice

Baby cause the words don't come out my mouth right

Try to say I'm sorry but I throw it like a knife

Make my knuckles white

Cause I'm scared

Scared to sit inside so much uncertainty

Handle shit so obsessive compulsively

You're all scared of me

(Scared, scared, ohh, ohhh)

I've been talking to the moon

And all she said is what the fuck is wrong with you?

And I said I know I'm tired too

And I'm just on a loop

I'm just on a loop

I-I'm just on a loop

(I'm just on a loop)

And I'm a broken record too

And I'm scaring you

Scaring you, scaring you, scaring you

Scaring you too