Bargaining (feat. Nathan Nzanga)

I thought for sure by now I'd have it all figured out

I figured I'd have seven figures in my bank account

I figured if I fixed my mouth to spit about

The ins and outs of being down and out

I'd finally make them shout

I'm second-guessing the message

Like they don't want a sermon

Gotta deliver distractions

They gotta get to twerkin'

I heard it working for a person

Who cool with a serpent

Wondering if I get a word with him

Will I start to flourish

Seeking my piece of the pie and peace in the world

Deceit from the world I feel defeated seeking diamonds and pearls

I'm dying of thirst the worldly well ain't filling my cup

Elohim kept calling on me like I'll never give up

You need a rebirth I'm lifting you up

Need a reminder of your purpose

Spreading love from above

They reaching for you below

But keep on seeking the source

I'll hand you the torch

Spread that light wherever you go

Tiptoeing to glory I think I missed my calling

Been specializing in Denying who I'm meant to be

Quite surprising that I'm yet to see the death of me

If I keep living like I'm living I'll never rest in peace  

Jehova never quit calling the ringing deafening

He left a message said you're meant for more than what it seems

He kept repeating that there's more in store believe in me

He sparked the light in me so I can live eternally

Easy peasy lemon squeezy street is something this will never be

The road to glory where the demons get to bargaining

They like pardon me heard your heart is up for harvesting

Questioning me worshiping a being that I've never seen

But I can see the blessings that I'm getting when I seek the king

I remember sinking in the sand the serpent brought to me

I can see he testing me my testimony's destiny

I'm reaching for the Savior 'stead of seeing where deception leads

I've been under pressure 300 degrees

Fire burning all around me I got ashes on my jeans

I been praying night & day

For things to change

I don't understand your ways

But I know you give me grace

Still I wonder

Why my parents had to break

Why I pivot my position

When you had me going straight

Just like the prodigal

I traded love for gain

I was walking in my flesh

Until I crawled into your grave

If I had it my own way

Wonder where I'd be today

Probably somewhere over East

Playing ball overseas

Reason that I'm grieved

Couple things that I dreamed

I ain't seen

If you said in your word

I believe

Faith of mustard seeds

I been tryna plant this truth

God I know you want me preaching

Less of me & more of you

Tryna bear this cross & it's been heavy

I need you to order all my steps

When I'm unsteady

Thought that I was ready

But apparently I wasn't

I am just a man

Tryna bargain all the what ifs

Done a couple things

That I told myself I wouldn't

God I need release from

All the shame that come with it

Thought that I would blow

If I was popping

I ain't see no other options

So I started flaunting

Now I understand

It's a victory in losses

If you take me back

I'm ready for it

God I'm all in