Hopeless

My mother still wonders if I'm going to kill myself

When I get low like before

And I want to tell her I'm better, tell her I'd never

How could I ever be so sure?

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

Sometimes, I wonder where the rope is

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

I still feel hopeless, I wonder where my hope is?

My father has been my guide, to survive genocide

I wish that I could take away his pain

How much can he give? I don't know if I wanna live

In a world that hates my father

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

Sometimes, I wonder where the rope is

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

I still feel hopeless, I wonder where my hope is?

I've been

Tryna find something to keep me on this planet

God damn it

Ever since my grandmother was buried

I've been willing and ready

These feelings are heavy

My mother said I sounded flat

That stopped me right in my tracks

I don't want my mother to know –

What it's like to lose a son

Remember when my uncle died?

I watched my grandfather cry

He only made it four more years

Till we put him inside the ground

There with his son

Now my grandmother gone

I feel like my soul is moving on

Would you rather watch your family die?

Or live a life that makes you

Wanna take your own

That's the kinda shit I'm on

We ain't make it till we're grown

We dying in our homes

I loved you while you were here

I wish you wasn't gone

I wish you wasn't gone

I wish you wasn't gone

Maybe I'll be gone

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

Sometimes, I wonder where the rope is

Sometimes, I still feel hopeless

I still feel hopeless, I wonder where my hope is?