Midnight Blue

I look for you in every midnight blue Mazda cx5

And I see them everywhere I swear that my heart stops every time

I used to love em, now I'm dreading every weekend

I've been spending too much time in the deep end

Do I do it to myself just to feel it, feel it

For a moment I wonder if it'd better if I never met you, if we never met then

I wouldn't ever have to forget you, then i remember

I fucking love you

But I know what broke me isn't gonna heal me

That doesn't change the truth

I only want you

And i'm okay hurting if you're the reason

Cuz I fucking love you

I wish i didn't but i do

Drove past the winery I met your friends at for your 24th

I almost turned around but stopped myself from walking through that door

Tried everything from meditation to medication, nothing works

And i'm getting sick of being patient, it's getting worse

For a moment I wonder if it'd better if I never met you, if we never met then

I wouldn't ever have to forget you, then i remember

I fucking love you

But I know what broke me isn't gonna heal me

That doesn't change the truth

I only want you

And i'm okay hurting if you're the reason

Cuz I fucking love you

I wish i didn't but im

Breaking down in my bed

Lost in my head

Replaying everything you said

And I'm fucking confused

How could lonely

Be something I'm getting used to

Oooooo oooooo

Oooooo oooooo

I wish I didn't but

I fucking love you

But I know what broke me isn't gonna heal me

That doesn't change the truth

I only want you

And i'm okay hurting if you're the reason

Cuz I fucking love you

I wish i didn't but I do

I wish I didn't but I do