THE ATTITUDE DEFICIENCY YOU HOLD ISN’T NEWFOUND IS IT? I WANT TO GIVE YOU THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT AND CUT SOME SLACK TO WHATEVER HUMANITY IS LEFT IN YOU AND DETERMINE YOU EXUDED THESE BAD EMOTIONAL QUALITIES AS A TODDLER. ALWAYS FINDING YOURSELF ALIENATED AND SEPARATED FROM OTHER CHILDREN AND ADULTS. AS MEANS TO PROTECT OTHERS POSITIVE OUTLOOK ON LIFE FROM BEING RUPTURED BY YOUR SHREWISH BEHAVIOR. IT MAKES ME WONDER IF THE INNER MOST DESIRES OF YOU EITHER (A) WANT TO FIND A PARTICULAR MAKE WHO ALLOWS YOU FILL A DEEP NEED TO ESCAPE ANY EFFECTS OF MEASUREMENTS OF ABANDONMENT THAT WAS USED TO MAKE YOU THAT WAY OR (B) YOU’VE GROWN SO ACCUSTOMED TO THE COLD FEEL OF BEING FORGOTTEN AND ALONE THAT YOU’LL PUT EVERYONE THRU THE SAME GAUNTLET OF SELF ESTEEM HURT YOU FACED CAUSE SURELY ANYONE MEANT TO BE WITH YOU COULD UNDERGO WHAT YOU WENT THRU AND STILL SURVIVE WITH SOME FRAGMENTS OF COMPOSURE. AT LEAST ENOUGH TO ALLOW THEM GIVE OFF THE NOTION THEY ARE A WELL AND WHOLE PERSON. YOU START RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE INTENTION TO LEAVE YOUR PARTNER FEELING ALL ALONE AND SEE HOW THEY’LL WITHSTAND.
