It's my birthday, but I don't feel happy
Forgot what the word means
You know what it's like
No end to the night when
I won't let the light in
Feels like l'm driving drunk most of the time
I stare at the walls 'til they cave in
And never call anyone back
'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that?
It's my birthday
So I'II drink to my heartache
I know it's the worst way to leave it behind
If I'm being honest
It's not what I wanted
Feels like it's all too much most of the time
I stare at the walls 'til they cave in
And never call anyone back
'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that?
I'm always afraid when there's no one around
But I can't see my friends 'cause I'm bringing them down
Now I'm closing the door, and I'II shut them all out
So they don't ask me why l'm not better by now
It's my birthday
And I'm hoping the window breaks
To steal my reflection
To show me outside
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever love her
Feels like she's all I've got most of the time
Funny how all that I want is to leave her behind
