Trust Me

Mother

I do not want to eat my supper

The world is shades of gray, no color, color

Can you please help me, help me, Mother?

And, Mother

Please give me skin that grows in tougher

I used to know the way to suffer, Mother

Now I can't tell winter from summer

The body is wise but mine is broken

Unsteady tides of my emotion

They say trust yourself but how do you know when?

How do you know when? How do you know?

What if I fall into the abyss?

What if I swing only just to miss?

What if the rose looks pretty but the thorns cut me?

What if I make a terrible mistake?

The tunnel light could just dissipate

What if the weight's so heavy I let it crush me?

But what if I trust me?

What if I trust me?

What if I, what if I trust me?

Pressure

I only want to make it better

What if the nothing lasts forever, ever?

And I give way under the pressure?

Terror

That I could make another error

But if I trust that I'll recover, Mother

Then that which scares me loses power

What if I fall into the abyss?

What if I swing only just to miss?

What if the rose looks pretty but the thorns cut me?

What if I make a terrible mistake?

The tunnel light could just dissipate

What if the weight's so heavy I let it crush me?

But what if I trust me?

What if I trust me?

What if I, what if I trust me?

I'm okay, I'm okay

It's okay if I don't quite believe it yet

I'm okay, I'm okay

I'm slowly re-growing all the skin I shed

Learning to trust myself again

Learning to trust myself

So if I fall into the abyss

I guess that's just where I'm gonna live

I'll stitch the wounds any time the thorns cut me

And I could make a terrible mistake

The tunnel light may just dissipate

I'll learn to see better in the dark, honey

I'll learn how to trust me

What if I trust me?