as if

Hyper aggressive, if I'm honest

I can't stand to be alone

My friends are so progressive

They called me faggot a year ago

And I couldn't cut them off

Because then I’d be on my own

Being obsessive sounds depressing

But it's just the way it goes

Just the way it goes

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm)

Gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Never gonna change

My friends on fentanyl, I hope they're finding their peace

On life support for a week

I heard they died in their sleep

There's so much truth in the fiction, don't know what to believe

There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need

Something more

(Something more, something more)

I'm just dying to be

Something more

Something more

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

(As if I, as if I)

I wonder if ill ever get it right

(As if I, as if I)

I wonder if I’ll ever find the words

(As if I, as if I)

I wonder if I’ll ever be enough

(As if I, as if I)

I wonder if I'll ever fucking change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm

As if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Gonna change

(As if I, as if I)

Never gonna change