Halfway

Don't really care that I'm at an airport

Every dinner tastes like cardboard

Every song has all of the same chords

All of my clothes don't fit in the same way

Every step forward feels like a mistake

I still pretend I know what he would say

Oh, I

But I don't

And I never will

And it's fine

But it's also really not

I'm halfway good, halfway bad

Halfway really fucking mad

Almost wish it would pass

Halfway kinda want it back

Halfway meeting someone else

Halfway nothing really helps

Me unfeel how I felt

Halfway back to myself

I, I'm

I, I'm

I used to think those nights were the hardest

Pain right there that spot where your heart is

I didn't know that I would be missing

How good it hurt (How good it hurt)

But it's better than whatever the hell this is

Sitting alone, secretly wishing

You'll come and hurt me all over again

Maybe it's worse maybe it's worse

Or it's not

Yes, it is

And I'm fine

But I'm also really not

Halfway good, halfway bad

Halfway really fucking mad

Almost wish it would pass

Halfway kinda want it back

Halfway meeting someone else

Halfway nothing really helps

Me unfeel how I felt

Halfway back to myself

I, I'm, I, I'm

I, I'm, I, I'm

I, I'm

I, I'm, I, I'm

I, I'm

I'm halfway me, halfway you

Halfway trying to undo

Halfway scared that I'll forget all the good things we went through

Halfway here, halfway trying

To just feel like I'm not dying

Halfway put you on a shelf

Halfway back to myself

I'm