I Wanna Have Faith

Lately, when I close my eyes to pray

I can't find the words to say

I'm speechless

But questioning delight and wonderin' why

Am I so blind?

Depends on what I’ve left undone

Or have heard or said or won

The pressure

That fills my room and molds me while I sleep…

It’s killing me

Oh! I’m on my knees, and yet

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When I can’t see the plan

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

But I’ll go inside my head

Speaking for the living dead

Distraction

Enough dissatisfaction to deny

The wool in my eyes

I’ll weave a question mark so wide

That when laid upon its side

It hooks me

It scratches beats and proves me that I’m numb

And meaningless

Is this the truth or am I choosing it?

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When I can’t see the plan

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

What if I like it

Being in control

‘Cause are you even here to hold?

‘Cause if there’s nothing where do I go?

If my destiny is purely chemistry

Then why…why do I want more?

I jump ‘cause sometimes I can fly

Leave my anger far behind

That moment

Where anything is possible for me

Is that

Is that

Is that belief?

Love ain’t false but it’s a mystery to me

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

And it falls from fingers clasping it

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When will I stop with all the questioning

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

And I’ll scream until my God starts whispering

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith