Worship What I Hate (Commentary)

I keep looking at myself in the mirror

Hopin' it will change

And I keep wishing for a brand-new body

That I didn't have to blame

I'm seein' every flaw, like a failure

I'm usin' every cure, like a savior

Like tryna build a church out of all my hurt

When it really needs grace

I gave all my time to nothin'

I focused on who I was not who I'm becomin'

My fears, they took up space

My eyes couldn't look away

I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Half a bottle of red just before bed

Is the only way I dream

Before I really wake up

The first thing I touch is a button on a screen

I'm not guilty of leavin', not stickin' around

I'm guilty of stayin' and just checkin' out

Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out

On what's in front of me

'Cause I gave all my time to nothin'

I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin'

My fears, they took up space

My eyes couldn't look away

I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Why do the lies feel like the truth?

Why do I do the things I do?

Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty?

'Cause I gave so much time to nothing

I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin'

My fears, they took up space

My eyes couldn't look away

I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

I didn't even realize (Realize)

I didn't even realize (Realize)

I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

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Didn't even realize, no (Ooh-ooh-ooh)

Didn't even realize, didn't know (Ooh-ooh-ooh)

(Ooh-ooh-ooh) Mmm, yeah (Ooh-ooh-ooh)

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