It's Okay

Cuz you already won, won

Won, won, won

So it's okay

Didn't know if I could fake it

Cuz I struggle to smile

Tryna work out all my problems

But I been in denial

About my issues, feeling lonely

I been alone for a while

Reading passages from passages hoping to heal my inner child

Faith

I keep it cool

What happens will happen

Cuz when it's hot or getting heavy

It's still somebody slackin'

Like I'm selling jokes making fun

Just to keep **** laughin'

Cracked a side, pressed stones, top coats for orderly fashion

How can I play my part

If I can't give you my truth

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Yeah I'm real living proof

Most likely my own worst critic

What anxious minds do

Personal bias, but I promise it's an honest review

Chin up love, head high

What I tell myself daily

Affirm the soul, ya know

Carry myself like a lady

Bags and bond, locked in key

Only music can save me

Singing these sad songs

that's my definition of praying

Am I more of a woman when I lead with affection

Imagine being lined up just to get your attention

They use my passion as a pass to cash a check I ain't spendin'

Fraudulent, they make believe

It's always one that's pretending

I heard it takes a village

Why can't I just ask for help

Some wanna see my name in lights so they got something to tell

And I think I deserve my earthly heaven

Just like anyone else

And yeah you'll see me cryin'

But I am proud of myself

Cuz you already won, won

Won, won, won

So it's okay

Forgot to call my grandma

Tell her I love her today

Feel so guilty being distant

And we only 3 blocks away

Of course I answer when she needs

Though it hurts that she even has to

Losing a son then losing ya strength

Can be the bearer of all ya bad news

Hope

Personified

Countin' my blessings

So I wrote a little story to make senses without the feds

Sending messages through pigeon claws

Scratch a hole into these prison walls

Play the enemies close so it's a foul when I double cross the guards

I made a mess when I aint have to

Feeding the stress like I could only afford fast food

It's enough to take the pain away

Until I face another day

Or till I face another jay

To make another great escape

I'm scared to fly among fish in a pond of water

Like I'm not cut from fatigue and been through battles even harder

I wish for life to bring us lightness

And death to bring us peace

So that we know when it's done

Our souls will be safe to keep

Put a ring onto this lifeline

Through sickness and health

Wealth could never frame me

Name bestowed on a shelf

I gotta polish scuffs and bruises

Mask the pain that I felt

But to say I even tried

I'm goddam proud of myself

Cuz you already won, won

Won, won, won

So it's okay