The Stray

Hold me like a bouquet bound to be thrown over your shoulder

Spit my name out like a dog that needs to be put down

Dance in my light, dig your heels in my spine

I'm upright now (Amour propre)

To know you is to kneel

A rest that wasn't real

I'm up right now (Vive ta misere)

But I know you need it bad

Found your fix, but you can't quite grip it

Control's a drug that you can't quit

You're lost and losing it, hey

Nothing feels right, apprehension

Skin feels shrunken, too much tension

When feet swing over the walls and heels dig into the earth

No more running from ourselves

The trailing haunt of malaise

There in the narrow gaze of the stray I became

I know you need it bad

Found your fix but you can't quite grip it

Control's a drug that you can't quit

You're lost and losing it

I'll miss the pull of the prongs in my collar

How that felt like someone cared

To keep from what I wanted, me

We writhe from want, and grow from need

There'll be no one to blame

When I'm out of the way

And the demon drowning well has dried

If having grip of the reins

Is what you need to keep sane

Canter frenetic to a shallow, shameful grave

I don't believe in constellations, even when my stars align

Luck is made with good intention, love, and grace, yeah