Soul Searchin

I came inside this bitch alone, so that's how I'm gon' leave

Remember when I first thought it, ain't no one believed

And that's the shit that left me hardest, now they finna see

I'ma finish what I started, plans I'll achieve

They see the fame, but they don't see the pain

I done been through everything, baby, I done seen the rain

Lost my Grandma sixteen years ago, that shit still weighin' on me

And it's right here by my side because these **** prayin' on me

That's real shit, pain pills couldn't heal this

And you can give a bitch the world, but in the end, they gon' still switch

I'm speakin' for the real ****, they gon' feel this

And how you say you spinned the block, but you ain't killed shit?

I was always taught to listen 'fore I speak

I was really in the fields, ten toes with no cleats

Keep enemies close and watch the company you keep

And you can't feel my pain 'cause my pain run deep

Lately, I been soul searchin'

Tryna find my whole purpose

The shit I seen, it made my heart bleed

But I can't let them demons haunt me

Murder runnin' through my conscience

So lately I been movin' cautious

'Cause I know that **** wanna kill me

So I'ma let these **** feel me

I'm just grateful that I'm livin', Lord, can I get a witness?

I'm 'posed to be dead, them bullets miss my head by some inches

Fuck another ****' business, I'ma mind mine

My life hard, you can't walk a mile inside my size 9

I lost too many ****, wish I could rewind time

Feel like I never had a purpose, I'm prayin' I find mine

The proper preparation, dedication equals greatness

I do this for my family, my siblings' my motivation

Steady dodgin' penitentiaries, this life I live was sin to me

Quick to cut a **** off, motherfuck the history

A lot of hate up in the air, I can't let it get to me

A lot of money everywhere, get that shit by any means

Fuck a label, them **** tried to end my career

I'm knowin' that my time is near, they tried to leave me in the rear

I don't fear a ****, goin' broke is my only fear

But I'm sendin' up a prayer, I'm hopin' that you can hear

Lately, I been soul searchin'

Tryna find my whole purpose

The shit I seen, it made my heart bleed

But I can't let them demons haunt me

Murder runnin' through my conscience

So lately I been movin' cautious

'Cause I know that **** wanna kill me

So I'ma let these **** feel me