Smaller

It's a tired fascination with everything I'm not and

Wasting nights wondering, trying to figure out, oh

Maybe if I'm quiet, maybe if I'm lighter, maybe I'll be something

Someone you would like

If I'm smaller and if I'm different, just a little less

Would you love me?

If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips

Would you love me?

It's an overdone obsession with chasing what I'm not and

Something I've been hiding

Space I'm taking up and slouching in my shoulders and

Curving in my back, afraid that all this space I'm in is just too much to have

If I'm smaller and if I'm different, just a little less

Would you love me?

If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips

Would you love me?

And I can't change what just stays the same

So I keep trying to love me how I'm made

I know I'm hating on my mother, I'm disrespecting dad by

Spending nights trying to change the way I am

I'm tearing at my structure, pulling at my skin

Just wishing I was smaller and different

And I'm spitting on the people who love me just like this

Who don't wish that I was smaller or less of anything

And I'm yelling in my silence, so make the voices stop

Let me sleep in quiet, not thinking that I ought to be

Smaller and different, just a little less

So you can love me

With none of this and some bigger lips and some smaller hips

So you can love me

And I can't change what just stays the same

But I keep trying to love me how I'm made

How I'm made

How I'm made

How I'm made

If I'm smaller and if I'm different, just a little less

Would you love me?

If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips

Would you love me?