Why Can't I Have What I Want Any Time That I Want?

When will time erase This stupid smile from my face? I still feel you in my veins Pure and refined, while I raged Questions are of no consequence Humiliations are easily subsumed In oblivion and indifference With a love that is malignant and true Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong I am wrong in this skin, but that's where my need for you begins With your nails through my hands, on the hill that I tilled On the cross that I built, crying for more, more, more Give me more, give me more, I'm your supplicant, I'm your whore I'm unconscious on the floor, but my hand is reaching for your door There's a shadow of your taste, and the blood-rush in my gut No, it's never, never enough, why would I ever give you up? Lost, lost, lost, now I want to pay the cost I don't care, just erase every memory, every trace Let me run through the ruins, from the failure and regret Just open up my mouth and pour your tongue into my head Ah, gone, gone, gone, I am lost without your breath Now my teeth are cracked and red, I am begging at the foot of your bed Give me one more taste of death Why can't I have what I want Any time that I want? Why can't I have what I want Any time that I want?