I'm Hurting

I be hurtin', but they don't know I be hurtin' They just act like I ain't human Like I ain't got emotions, like my shit don't matter, what the fuck? (Stay with Vegas on the wave) Ay, nigga's on block with them drums (With drums) Living life of hard knock and living life of a thug (Life of a thug) I had to sober up, slow down, and put down the drugs (Down the drugs) Had to get my vision clear and do shit right by my girl Love my son, he know I got him, I'ma give him the world (I'ma give him the world) Real loner, plenty knowledge, but don't fuck with the world (Fuck with the world) Everybody think I'm trippin' so I stay to myself (Stay to myself) I admit I don't know it all, thuggin' with John on Pearl (John on Pearl) Heart to heart with Three, we in the studio and we vibe I still got love for Spins even though he don't see my eyes Feel betrayed, post to be my brother but it's that pride I rolled with you whole day, you got called Meechy' died Tryna talk to the world but they don't understand me (Don't understand me) So much pain that I took that's why I'm so damaged (So Damaged) Still fucked up 'bout my cousin tryna call Granny (Tryna call Granny) And Ralo post to be here, my nigga left me abandoned The world opinionated and I just can't stand it (Just can't stand it) Genuine bonds with Poppa, shit I cherish (I cherish) See that's a true friend, don't need to vouch if he the realest (He the realest) I wanna give it up, I spit that real shit and they don't hear it (They don't hear it) Don't take it to take it, it's up to you if you listen Make it or break it, it's up to you, pay attention Cause you yo' only enemy, no longer doubt myself My girl tired of me questioning is she into me (Is she into me?) Can't say it's low self-esteem or where it's coming from My confidence come and go, like how the hell, what the fuck My anger bad, try not to flash, and I just wanna be love My temper shorter than a fuse and it be fuckin' me up Like do the thugs go to heaven? Left hand, Mike Vick, rolled a dice, and hit a seven That's on the first roll, another option is eleven Got my heart cold but my grind I stay at it Made all these kids and I'm gon' be there for them (Gon' be there for them) Look at all I did and I'm the one they turn on (They turn on) Niggas stab me in my back and I still be there for them (There for them) Give a nigga a right arm, he gon' want the left one They want it all, greedy, they come selfish (Selfish) I told dude to stay on track, you gotta help it (You gotta help it) You got the opportunity, don't do what I did (What I did) Cause you don't wanna be 'round in regret (In regret) Do it for my mama, try my best (Try my best) Gotta get these commas for my kid (My kids) When ever you in trouble, call on dad I'ma always be here, cause I'ma always be here (Always be here) Talk to the man up above, tryin' get a response (Respond) They say you live by a nigga, you gon' die by the gun (Die by the gun) Stuck in the trenches with my niggas, shit use to be fun (Use to be fun) I'm tryna go far away, where I ain't gotta tote guns My mind damaging and I'm tryna heal it (Tryna heal it) I'm venting right now, got one question, do you feel me? Niggas wanna kill me but nigga I ain't slippin' (Slippin') I'm not gon' be a statist, I'm tryna make a difference (Make a differnce) Poppa told me go hard and leave my imprint on the wall (Imprint on the wall) See Baba' that's my boy, he real genuine and thurl (Genuine and thurl) See Jock my main man another one that's also thurl See Fo' my best friend, he never change then he thurl Can't forget 'bout Black, time to go free Kai, say Dre on the way, 21 need to get out (Need to get out) I ain't been answering the phone, we ain't been seeing eye to eye, but I ain't never changed on you nigga, trust god Look to the sky and grab the stars on how I found me I'm beefin' with my baby's mom's, I hope it all see (I hope it all see) I hope it all change, it's all love for them, mothers of my kids, a nigga play, y'all better call me (Call me) Pain make a monster, swear to god make you evil (Make you evil) I'm havin' talks with god somehow I'm still tryna seek him (Seek him) From the eye-side view, them people think I'm a reaper Say the feds involve, gang ties, and think that I'm the leader (I'm the leader) Fake friends fake they energy, they ain't one of mine A real one on one nigga, I swear I'm one of kind A rare breed you'll never find a nigga like I (A nigga like I) So destroyed from a leak and still cryin' bout Kai ('Bout Kai) So much rain a nigga seen, when the sun gon' shine? (Shine) Cry to god on my knees, when my brothernem' died (They died) So much love for them, forever got 'em, nigga I'ma ride If you need a heart transplant I'll give mine (I'll give mine) (If you need a heart transplant I'll give mine)