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I'm gunna kill myself in 3 minutes YEAH I've got an obsession with Death and destruction But I keep regressing cause I'm too reluctant To try and communicate Not just annihilate Nothing inside me There's nothing but hate Now I'm gunna play roulette With these Percocets Then I'm gunna pop a Xanax Cause I'm feeling manic I start to panic And I go satanic I gotta take more Cause I'm feeling low When the alcohol And the Adderall Are wearing off It left a hole But I don't want Anybody else to know And I'm fixated On the mutilated Cause I get off to X-rated type of stuff You can barely bare to see But that's just a Portrait of my fantasy And the Benzodiazepines Are helping me I slip em in drinks It's an aphrodisiac You get whatever you want Without them fighting back There's nothing left inside And I deserve to die I'm chasing the dragon now Beaten down and so burned out The enemy is inside me Lies of venom spewing out From the serpent's bloody mouth I'm the enemy that's killing me Maybe I'll slit my wrists in the bathtub But if it doesn't work Then I'm not any closer Gotta have a Plan B right on hand So I guess I'll bring a backup toaster What about a gun? That's quick and easy Blow my brains out put it on this CD But that's for cowards Cause it doesn't hurt I wanna feel the pain that I deserve I've already tried to overdose Took too many pills But I slept it off I'm depressed outta my mind More like all time I just wanna die I really wanna die I skip into manic Like I'm a schizo And Panic! more Than a young girl at the Disco I guess nothing matters Like I'm Marshall Mathers Slim Shady took over I'm bruised and battered I'm chasing the dragon now Beaten down and so burned out The enemy is inside me Lies of venom spewing out From the serpent's bloody mouth I'm the enemy that's killing me I need a fatal fix Homicide then suicide I don't need help I just don't wanna be alone When I kill myself I'm running out of time And I need another hit Lethal overdose I need a fatal fix But I'm not done this isn't over Like an alcoholic Who claims he's sober But it's so damn boring To live the same old story Over and over Some people can never change Till it goes too far And you can't come back From the jaws of defeat So rise to your feet Grab the world by the balls Pick your head up stand tall Even though you're in pain And it won't ever change You can at least be grateful You're alive today, right? Ahh screw it Gimme that knife Im'a take my life Cause I'm all outta hope I'll just slit my god damn throat