The Sum of All Fears

Like a thief in the night To rob me blind I'll Stay inside a fearful mind Replace the truth with lies No How did I end up here? A void inside my brain Relive the same old fears Till I end up insane Well maybe I'm not enough And maybe I'll never be Or maybe I'm to much for everyone I've ever seen Tell me how to undo every thought that I'll one day lose my wings My thoughts stay haunted Screaming I'm not wanted Imposter syndrome in my dreams Been trapped in here for too long Afraid the weight of every thought of mine has killed the flame Hoping I'm not too gone Miss time that I wasted Consequences I ain't faced yet Rain on my parade anytime I'm enjoying the life I've made Take another chance I know that I'll get played Stubbornness and anger start to get in the way I try to grow you know my luck At times I'm slow but I'm not stuck The future ain't now and the past is 6 feet down So I don't give a fuck Played out a hundred times I'll stay inside my room protect My burning head from consequence I'm hanging from a thread I don't know what to do bout me Lock my lungs and count to three Hoping that eventually i believe the good in me (Believe the good in me) Been trapped in here for too long Afraid the weight of every thought of mine has killed the flame Hoping I'm not too gone Miss time that I wasted Consequences I ain't faced yet I'm wasted, I'll pace the floor I'm chasin an open door Got ten reasons, I need one more I know that I've been here before What if I don't make it out What if i I die drowned in doubt Still too fucked up to fill my collapse lung up I guess I'm hung up on things that I could die from I know what's inside Is really all I need I don't wanna take Responsibility I think i can't change But I just need to heal I control my path This shit is way too real And this life it is mine But I seem to miss signs Well as long as I'm trying Then I think that's fine The devil and god, play their games And we all feel the same So play your cards right Or pray the whole night Or venture off and find The peace and light We all find an answer letting go of our past If you hold onto it, ur spinning your wheels Getting nowhere fast And This mess can be fixed Give me time and I'll grow And I've found out my purpose And I'm never letting go